A likes new years. Its like a closure of the old one - good,bad,ugly.
A likes when she can make confident decisions.
What she doesn't like is when she feels a certain loss of magic.
A million dreams have been killed in the quest to be realistic.
When A fell in love, it was just a feeling, fighting every odd...
Today its more of a memory of how the feeling was - intense,passionate,lucid,pure,raw,unapologetic
Today the feeling is scared to feel, looks for right time, has lost spontaneity, cant even cry out loud in despair of the memory.
A always said she can’t get married. Even when she wanted to spend the rest of her life with B, she didn’t say marry me!
But there was a condition of getting married. So much so that spending nights seemed not possible if they weren’t married.
A's sexuality is something she has grown up with. How does she change that? She can only suppress it.
What does A do with the un-abashed flow of energy that she feels with same sex?
In today’s world we cheat every single day. We wish to have “you” here, though the “you” is not the person you apparently are with.
The reason we don’t have to live with it is because it is casual and we aren’t honest.
A doesn’t complain about it anymore, she doesn’t feel the need to.
All A wants is to have a simple magical feeling of being with someone who she can spend the rest of her life with.
It comes with no condition.
It just comes with a commitment to be with one another, living the life both of them want, and its kind of the same things.
A likes melancholy and darkness, its only then she can see the moon and the stars.
If A misses B, and B misses A and thinks the other one doesnt' care, they are being idiots.
Everyone does the same thing with their lives, coz its the safe thing to do.
A just wanted an unadulterated version to live and love, minus the should-s and haves.
B probably doesn’t want that.
So can they create magic if they don’t want the same things from life and love?
